Is it all in my head?

One of the new things people began to find out in the last century was that thoughts—just mere thoughts—are as powerful as electric batteries—as good for one as sunlight is, or as bad for one as poison. To let a sad thought or a bad one get into your mind is as dangerous as letting a scarlet fever germ get into your body. If you let it stay there after it has got in you may never get over it as long as you live… surprising things can happen to any one who, when a disagreeable or discouraged thought comes into his mind, just has the sense to remember in time and push it out by putting in an agreeable determinedly courageous one. Two things cannot be in one place.

“Where you tend a rose, my lad, A thistle cannot grow.”

For me, beginnings and endings are the hardest to deal with. End of school year, losing friends. Beginning of a new year, finding myself again. Both cause me unwanted stress and negative thoughts. Even in writing, starting something is pretty tough. I despise cliches and introductions get quite boring. It’s hard to know what will captivate a reader. But.. since I can’t jump right in to what I’d like to say I guess I’ll have to explain myself first.

I’ve always thought of myself as a writer for the greater part of my life. Maybe its just a coincidence that my last name happens to be Storey? Writing and story-telling come naturally to me. The friends that I converse with daily often tell me that I have the most interesting and dramatic stories about my everday life, as if I made them up… but I’m not a liar. (Well, for the most part). I’m sure I’d be more into acting if it wasn’t for stage fright.

On the page it’s easier to express what I’m truly feeling.  In the past few years I experimented with attempts at poetry, journals, books, and such but I never really stuck with anything. I change my mind frequently and my ideas are different from one day to the next. So a while ago I thought, “Why not a blog?” Each entry wont be the same and I can write about the new thoughts or events that inspire me daily. Except before I  finished setting this up, summer rolled around and I was swept up into one of the best and busiest summers that I’ve ever had.

Needless to say, I got a little sidetracked.

When the summer ended (for me), it brought about a few changes in my life and my thoughts. Lately, its been a very rough ride these past few weeks and on top of everything else, my junior year started two days ago. School is turning out to be a distraction from all the negativity in my mind, but with all my free time I got bored. So I randomly decided to chat with someone I barely met and haven’t talked to for months.

After a while, our conversation led to figuring out what I should do with my free time and my hobby of writing came up. I had forgotten about my desire to start up a blog and he helped me kick myself out of my depressing mood. I thanked him for that and here I am, inspired again. Maybe this is a place I can organize my thoughts, or it could be an escape from reality.

I haven’t decided yet.

The quote I chose to begin with is from a great story about rebirth and the relationship between well-being and outlook. I read The Secret Garden over the summer and it had an impact on how I saw life and I have a little more optimism than before.

The book shows the parallel lives of two unhappy and sickly children who are related and brought together. When introduced, the two are so engrossed in dismal and troubled childhoods that they have no room for playing or friendship, only having know neglect and misfortune. When the girl learns of a secret garden and finally finds the friendly human companionship she needs, she starts to physically and emotionally recover. Then she discovers her cousin who is on a sickbed and is only dying because his father believes he  is. Not getting any attention from his father, he’s grown up believing it too when in reality the illness is all in his head. The two become friends after a while and she divulges her secret of the garden, of friendship, flavor, nature, and magic to him, which heals them both and he wins back his father’s affection.

I know from experience that the mindset of thinking that nothing is going right only makes things worse. Being optimistic and knowing that there are things worth living for keeps the mind healthy. Friendship is definitely a driving force for me. Without my lovely friends, I’m sure I wouldn’t be who I am.  Although I don’t always keep a happy outlook when things go wrong, I’m learning and its a good lesson. I wont focus on the ugly thoughts.

I’ll grow a rose garden instead.


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One response to “Is it all in my head?

  1. Elise

    I know, I’m a great friend 😀 lol jk, optimism really is important, and you really do have great stories, even if they are dramatic. Your writing is beautiful you should follow your dreams, despite what ANYONE tells you.

    Keep writing!

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